Thursday, May 17, 2012

Just life

This summer's really interesting.

There have been so many new experiences, and they've made me reflect on and realize some things.

I have been interning at FTI Consulting, a multinational firm that offers finance, due diligence, forensics, and other related functions. In the country, they're a small firm, and is supervised by two senior managing directors, one a UP alumnus and another an Australian who's Chinese but looks Korean. Their office is along Ayala Avenue, and it takes me two hours to get there. It's exhausting really, but one I look forward to. Just so many things happen there. You can pick up valuable insights just from the conversations alone. We have also been given a couple of significant assignments which involve extensive research work. My research has exposed me to banking and the securities market, and it's great to see and read about all those concepts at play in the real world. It's different reading about them from the books, and then finally hearing them get talked about and reading various news articles about them. What we've experienced validates all the lessons, and imprints them more deeply in our minds.

Actually, I hadn't planned to talk about my internship in this post. I actually have something to submit tomorrow. Yesterday, we had just presented before a panel of FTI employees the output of our research. We've been asked to revise our output based on the comments, and tomorrow is the deadline. Anyway, the point of this article is to immortalize into words what I have been feeling for the few days.

The people at FTI are great with what they do. I'm almost sure that they require any potential employee to have gotten extreme scholastic achievements at the minimum. Being with such great people has humbled me. Each of us must think we're good enough, at the least with something. In my case, I've always thought I had a gift with words, with writing, but meeting other bloggers who can draw and sustain readers more than I think I ever can, has made me think that perhaps I'm just a typical girl who can write on occasion good articles, but not necessarily always.

Experiencing FTI and getting to know its people has made me realize my weaknesses, and the many things I have to improve on. I have learned a lot, and I'm in love with finance, but I just don't think I have the drive yet--the same determined attitude that fuel these people. I want to be successful someday--and we could all go on and on how and what this means to us. But for the meantime, I know I want to be a financial success someday so that at the very least I could have security and enjoy life. But it will take so much to get there, and working at FTI has made me realize that I have a lot to do to better and imrove myself so that I may one day join these people--fervent and serious about their careers but ones who can equally be the friend to invite over for a talk or a date, or who can just maybe sing karaoke with you when you feel like it.

The people are FTI are achievers, and yet interacting with them, they're actually just normal people. They just have the drive to learn and keep doing good work that adds value not just to the organization they work for but for most especially themselves. They just take the definition of 'normal' to a new high, to a much elevated plane. But oddly enough, I can't help but think that this is how 'normal' should be. We all have those days (I know I do) when we just don't feel like doing anything and just generally laze and squander the day away, but we should never cease pursuing endeavors that make us learn and enrich us as people. Learning doesn't stop with that last final exam, or with graduation. Learning should be constant, and not only something that you can get from those thick textbooks. In fact, it can come from the most innocuous experience, or from the simplest activity.

If you feel like pampering yourself and notice that you've idled the time away in facebook, I tell you, do yourself a favor and get out of the house. Learning comes from discovering places too, because in these places you will inevitably meet people and maybe learn via stories of their own experiences. There'll be nothing to post in facebook anyway, without any brand new life experience.

I have learned so much about the banking industry in particular throughout the course of this summer. And my eight hour working time that never seems enough has made me conscious that indeed TIME IS GOLD. You might think you know this line by heart but no, being aware of the line is miles different from really truly knowing the line from having experienced it in life and then internalizing it afterwards. You just know of it in your thoughts and mind. You can never get back the past half hour that you just spent in facebook. You might have a deadline coming or don't. But whatever you might be up to right now, trust that the world is just waiting, and that so many things and new experiences await. You're just a conscious small step away from enjoying all these.

Which reminds me, again, that I have a deadline tomorrow. But it's feel good having written this article, and it I think has energized me. So adieu for now, and I hope that you're doing good with your life.